May 11

Dear reader, this is a tale of one thing that I did on the weekend that really impacted me. Interesting, no? Keep reading…

Friday was Radi8 Youth day, and it was alright. I absolutely loved the “Baby if you love me give me a smile” game, where someone had to go around the circle and try to get people to smile – it was awesome, especially when Dave said it had to be guy/girl – now THAT really made the game more interesting. ^_^

The real part of Radi8 Youth was when we were asked to write down something on a piece of paper, according to what God was saying to us. That was okay – it was the writing that was difficult. Maybe it was just me, but I really struggled to write anything of substance down – partly because the speaker had said that when he had done this, he then got out this piece of paper ten years later and everything on the list had come true.

This isn’t the first I’ve heard of this – the first time was on Twitter, in fact – a fellow Christian had done exactly the same thing, and like the speaker, all of the things on her list had come true, too.

Now, this list that I talk about wasn’t just some wish list that we wanted to happen. Sure, the way that the speaker had set it up it was “sort of” like a wish list, (in that through God, all those things on the list would come true), but no – the list was mainly things that God said to us.

For some reason, I felt it difficult to write things down. It wasn’t peer pressure, or anything like that. It was just a feeling of: “What happens if I get out my list 10 years later and none of these things have come true? Does that make me a bad Christian?” Mostly, it was a fear of the unknown than anything else – what if none of my list items were fulfilled?

Maybe it’s because I don’t have enough faith.

Maybe it’s because I was scared of being a failure.

In the end, I ended up writing a list which was full of wishy-washy things, things like “be married (happily)”, “be happy with my career”, and so on. You’ll notice that I’ve left out specifics, and for good reason – I’m no fortune teller! I certainly can’t predict who I’ll be married to, or what I’ll be doing in 10 years time.

There was nothing of substance on my list – but I’m okay with that. :)

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